This is the ramblings of a bad Christian. Sometimes I trust God, sometimes I'm sure he must not exist, because why would a loving God kick the shit out of me like this? Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I want to die. Sometimes I post about really stupid stuff and act like a little girl who is sheltered and doesn't know anything, sometimes I swear like crazy and post about things I wish I never had experience with. People see me as they want to see me, and I hide from them the reality of who I am. This is the shit that's constantly in my head. It's tell-all so if you know me outside of xanga you might want to preserve your immage of me and choose not to read... if you read don't get pissed at me for the crap in here, you chose to read it. This is me, take it or leave it. P.S. I have another weblog, in case you have seen me by a different username.